Max has been getting up earlier and earlier it seems and it’s really taking it’s toll. Last night he woke up at 3:50 and went back to sleep just after 4:00. The night before last he woke up at about 3:15 and didn’t go back to sleep until after 4:30. Rob and I spent that hour + racking our brains on how to get him back to sleep while taking turns in his room with him. I could spend hours trying to figure out what the hell his problem is (Teething? He does have 3, almost 4, new teeth coming in. Is he not feeling well? No fever, no runny nose no cough. No visible signs of illness. No dirty diaper. Etc.). He woke up at 5:37 this morning. I went in his room, made sure he had his pacifier, tucked him back in (for, like, the 1938435w94657th time tonight) and went back to bed. About 10 seconds after closing his door he started screaming.
He was ready to get up. I was not.
In my mind, getting up before 7:00 should be illegal. That being said, Max’s new “normal” wake up time is 6:00. On. The. Dot. Except for today, of course. Or any morning where I’ve been out the night before.
It’s like he knows I was out late consuming alcoholic beverages and wants to punish me for it. Thankfully, Rob has gotten up with him the last couple of times he’s tried to punish me.
It’s really hard to be in a good mood when you’re woken up every morning by a whiny, crying toddler hollering at you. It’s also really hard to keep my anger in check on these mornings, especially when he’s being all clingy and super whiny. I try to tell myself that it’s no big deal and just go on with my day, and some days it works. And some days it doesn’t and I snap at him and feel guilty about it. Some mornings I feel resentful towards him for making me get up at such an ungodly hour. And then I feel guilty about feeling resentful. I know these are all things all parents feel, but it’s something I think I need to work on. I shouldn’t be that angry that he woke up early. I just need to learn to not let it get to that point.I just want to see more of this.
I’m not asking for advice or answers. Because in a few weeks his sleep pattern will change, AGAIN. Because it always does. And if it doesn’t I’m just going to have to accept the fact that Max is a Dark and Early Morning Person, and I’m an After the Sun Rises at a Reasonable Hour Morning Person. I’ll probably need help in the form of quadruple shot espresso drinks, 5 Hour Energy Shots, crates of Red Bull and cocaine. I hear that stuff really gets you going. (I kid, I kid! Geez, relax.)